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[localfreak]

Well it was the funeral today. It was at the crem and was okay and it poured in bucketloads which he would have cackled himself silly at. I'm not going to embarrasingly blabber away about it and a small existential crisis on here, but I did actually cry, which is a little relief because it means I might just be edging out from the immense distractable numbness I have been in before then. I can't possibly describe how much Cliff meant to me, or to my mum, because when you love someone that much, and they influence every moment of your life so much it is just impossible to put into words. I don't know what the hell we're going to do without him, but any time we dwell on it we've been imagining we can hear him telling us off for being mardy miserable sods and to stop being bloody daft.

God, bless him.