Feb. 5th, 2016 10:32 am
localfreak: (Avada Kedavra!)
[personal profile] localfreak
Today I have the day off, because I am taking my cousin out to the theatre tonight as her Christmas present. I booked the day off partially because I had leave to burn and the show is early so I would've had to have a half-day anyway to have time to get home and change.

I am sure I had other plans for today as well though I can't remember what they were. Because I kind of lost my job yesterday.

Well. Kind of. It's really complicated to explain- I don't mean like 'I'm out on my ear 'ole' or anything so dramatic. And really, when you think about it I'm no worse off than if the person whose role I'm seconded into ended up coming back. I'll either go back where I came from- sort of- to a different role- or there's some talk about basically me staying and just losing a pay grade. Unless I just leave. Either way sliding back down the greasy pole I've been unsuccessfully trying to climb for six years.

But at the moment all I can think of is that for a 30 year old virgin I have been shafted quite a lot over the past six years. And being practiced in being fucked over and drowning in humble pie doesn't actually make it any easier to take. But there was already a risk of this- that I would be slinking backwards like a bird with its wings clipped.

So instead I have so far finished the Simon Armitage book I have been battling with (All Points North and read Matt Haig's The Radleys in about two and a half hours flat. And stood in the kitchen taking advantage of being alone in the house for the first time in weeks to have a really good, protracted, howling at the void, crying session.

Which I am now going to recover from with a cup of tea and finding something OTHER than crisps to eat. Or chocolates.

Date: 2016-02-06 09:29 am (UTC)
emeraldsword: colin morgan, text 'bugger' (colin bugger)
From: [personal profile] emeraldsword
Huge hugs

Date: 2016-02-06 05:34 pm (UTC)
still_lycoris: (Cuddle)
From: [personal profile] still_lycoris
*hugs* I am so, so sorry, what a disappointing thing to happen. I hope that the howling sessions was a bit helpful and you enjoyed the theatre. *cuddles* You are not slinking back, you are storming back with new talents, new experience and a are a glorious firebird/dragon/sparkly vamprie?

(maybe you'd rather not be the last one ...)

Date: 2016-02-06 06:54 pm (UTC)
tallulahgs: Adorably cross Raito (Adorably cross Raito)
From: [personal profile] tallulahgs
Oh I am so sorry, how rotten of them *all of the hugs* *shoves them in the mud*

I think howling at the void is probably cathartic but I hope the tea helped too.

I am resisting the urge to start giving! advice! because that's probably not helpful but, augh, and also, bluuuuuh :( I'm really sorry.

Date: 2016-02-07 05:20 pm (UTC)
tallulahgs: Emotional Matsuda (Emotional Matsuda)
From: [personal profile] tallulahgs
*more hugs* Bravery in the face of upheaval is all you can do but it is a good plan. I am crossing my fingers for you and hope that you go in a direction that ends up being a happy one.


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